Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I Jumped Off the Cliff Friday July 17, 2009

As many of you know I have been reading the Prodigal God by Tim Keller. It is a must read and has really changed my life like no other book. I've always known that I am a Martha but God has shown me through this book more of the why and reason that I live as a Martha.
I grew up with a perfectionist Dad who ruled by fear. If you didn't sweep out the carport correctly then you had to do it again. If you didn't get the paint line straight along the base board, you had to wipe it off and do it again. While I don't like to blame things on my past, God has really shown me through this book how my childhood really did shape my image of God.
The book has helped me to see that I am an Elder Sister who does, does, does, tries to pull myself up by the bootstrap (doing my moral duty) all to gain God's approval and acceptance. Tim Keller helped me to see that I have really been saying, God, thanks for my salvation, now I've got it under control but will you please sit up there in the bleachers to help me when I need you. (A dear friend of mine pointed out so clearly how that is health and wealth prosperity gospel!) I've always considered myself a prayer warrior. But I have been so convicted that my prayers are often "vending machine" prayers. And if I am so busy doing, seeking my own righteousness, how can I love God or others??
"God is committed to enthrall me with what is most deeply and durably satisfying, Himself." "The gift is God Himself above all His other gifts." John Piper in God is the Gospel
God has deeply convicted me that I have missed the relationship with God (and others) because I have been so busy doing, doing, doing. I have lived my life seeing how close can I get to my surrender without loosing all control. I have not believed that God Himself is all I need. (Somewhere in the Middle by Casting Crowns). So last Friday, I jumped off the cliff in total abandonment to God. Only by God's grace, I really am beginning to see that God is ALL I need.
I (by God's grace) can so live in the day BUT am often fearful that when I get down the road (i.e. Mexico) the day is going to overwhelm me and knock me down. But as long as God is with me, being knocked down isn't the worst thing that can happen to me. I often feel overwhelmed with Mexico, a new culture, a new language, new ministry and in the past would have spent an enormous time praying for God to help me (which of course I need to do some of this) but recently I have the most incredible peace and have even been able to say to God, "I only need you to go with me and be with me." What peace, freedom and joy there is in this abandonment to God. However, I must confess that I don't feel like I have my arms around all of this but I am thankful that only by God's grace, I have begun a relationship with my Savior, not based on my needs but on loving and enjoying Him forever.
I can sure make this Christianity thing much harder than it is supposed to be!! Thank you God for your grace and mercy to this sinner, for not giving up on me and for loving me just as I am in spite of myself!

Thursday, July 09, 2009

Scotts July 2009 Update

“See, I have called by name Bezalel, and have filled him with the Spirit of God, with ability, intelligence and knowledge…..that they may make all that I have commanded you.”  Exodus 31:3,6

As we feel that time is drawing closer for us to go to Mexico, we are reminded of our need of God and His grace to fulfill His calling through us for His glory.  So, may we share some specific praise and prayer requests with you, which are on our hearts?

-Praise God for our supporters who have sacrificed much during these difficult economic times.

“Through eternity (we) shall thank God for the silent flame in the hearts of those and what they did for (us).  Not many of them has ever had their path opened into foreign work, but the light of the Day that is coming will show what He has let them do in kindling others.”  Lilias Trotter

 - Please praise God for our supporters who have given much and prayed much during the past 5 years.  We are thankful to God for each one of you who support us financially and through prayer.

-Praise God for His detailed provisions for us during these past 2 months.  Please praise Him for the loan of a car.  Our dear friend, Chaplain Don Malin is serving our country in Afghanistan and they have graciously given us his car to use.  Please pray for him and his wife Bess. 

-We are so thankful to our daughter Lindsey for allowing us to move right into her home.

-Praise God for our encouraging communication/visits with most of our supporters during these 2 months.

-Praise God for special times with our Children and Grandchildren.

-Praise God for using our son Chad to encourage us, counsel us, point out sin and listen to our hearts.

-Please pray for God to grant us ability, intelligence and knowledge to accomplish His ministry in Mexico.

-Please pray that doors will be opened and that hearts will be opened for the gospel.

-Please pray for God’s abundant grace during language school, and for us to learn the language quickly. We are planning on attending school in Guadalajara, Mexico in September.

-Please pray for a place to live in Guadalajara (a place that feels like home) and for quick transition to this country/city.

-We only need $352.55 per month to be able to depart for Mexico.  Please pray for God to raise up commitments for this amount through churches and individuals so that we can depart in September.

With many thanks and much love – Deborah and Steven

Friday, July 03, 2009

Firehouse Visit

What fun we had visiting the firehouse to see the fire trucks with our Grandchildren!!  The Firemen were so nice and took much time with our special little ones.  And it was so interesting!!  It's definitely a calling and one which requires much sacrifice!  This 4th of July here's a special "thank you" to all the firemen in our country!

Raney's 2nd Birthday